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I'm Not A Real Writer

My mom called me yesterday to tell me how great she thought my blog posts were. I was thrilled to hear that she had read them better yet that she thought that they were great. But of course, she had a little grammar lesson and spelling corrections to give me. I remember back in High School while attending the same school that my mother taught at (Erasmus Hall High School), before it was five different schools, I would ask my mother to  proofread all of my High School essays. I would do the corrections and she would reread them and make more corrections, this went on for maybe 5-6 times to my disdain. During my college years, I would also ask for her assistance and she would  make corrections on my college papers as well. Not to mention as she became an adjunct professor at New York City Technical College, one of the first colleges I attended, I was also a student there and had the pleasure of taking one of her courses in Black Literature.
 I mean, I gladly accept  constructive criticism and suggestions but like I told her, I'm not a real writer. Real writers don't have to think twice about the spelling of words or which words to use for particular sentences, sentence structure and the correct place to put a comma. While on the phone with my mother we were discussing one of my posts and correct spelling and I was thinking about whether (not to be confused with weather) or not I had used the word Lie in the correct format and tense for the sentence,  "As I lie in bed."  We went back and forth for a minute while we both googled for the correct answer. It turns out that it could either be said as Lie or Lay. As I thought about the many years I had wasted not wanting to put my writing out into the public, for fear that the social media "Grammar Nazi" would scrutinize me, I figured hey, this could actually make me a better writer. I am now forced to make corrections and  look at rules of the English language all over again. Although I'm not a real writer I intend on continuing to write and perhaps I will improve my writing skills along the way.


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