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No Expectations, No Let Downs




I set up this blog since August of 2007. Never once did I write a thing in it. Throughout the years I have been good at starting things and not finishing them. But for the past couple of years I have broken that cycle. I've always loved writing and have kept many journals throughout the years. In High School it was an English teacher named Mr. Wax, he was a tall Caucasian man with lots of hair including a big bushy beard, who told me that I was a great writer. I always thought that I was a great writer, I mean coming from a mother who was a High School English Teacher for 30 years  (she's retired now), I thought I was a natural :-). That all changed when I began to doubt myself and compare myself to the work of others. I started to think, your vocabulary is not that broad, you often make major mistakes with grammar and spelling, who's going to read your corny blog? The committee in my head constantly fired shots that told me I wasn't good enough. Fast forward to 2015, working on my insides and remembering the reason why I started. I wanted to share my thoughts and feeling with others, while creating an outlet for myself. I realize that its not about the "Likes" and "Followers," at the end of the day its how I feel about my work. I am  slowly learning to let go of expectations.



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